So we inseminated today!! I’m so excited oh my god!!! My fingers are crossed but I know the likelihood of getting it on the first try is like super low but Idk not getting too hopeful …
IM FREAKING OVULATING FOR REAL THIS IS HAPPENING ALL SYSTEMS ARE GO HOLY SHIT
Yes! Just with my last cycle, I barely even got the faintest of lines on one day of that entire 40 day cycle which seemed odd to me, so getting any test line was exciting today! Proof that my body is doing -something- even if I have no idea exactly what. Lol. Thank you!!!
Got a whole shitload of OPKs and HPTs from one of my TFAB buddies on Reddit. Yay! Immediately peed on ALL THE TESTS. Aaand, hello, OPK lines! I don’t know yet if this surge is coming or going though. If it’s going, it could be that we hit our window just right and completely on accident on Thursday!! Which is just crazy!! If it’s coming, I’m worried that I may ovulate too soon before I can get back to our donor’s house to get another sample. Luckily, he’s going to text me his work schedule for this week at some point today so I can figure out when exactly I can get back there. I’m hoping my body holds off until Thursday or Friday to ovulate if it hasn’t already! Ahh! This is so freaking nervewracking. I’m angry I can’t just like, peek into my uterus to see what’s going on down there. LOL!
Welp, attempt #1 is officially a go. Chris had to stay late at work so I unfortunately had to inseminate my damn self but it was killing him not to be there so I really can’t be too mad. Just a little disappointed. More so after he recounted his day to me and how he was told that his promotion, once again, had been pushed back… Things are not going as planned! But well survive.
Not sure if ovulating or not since I’m not supposed to for another week or so but my body is being weird so we figured screw it. Fingers crossed and we’ll be trying again next week too. Yay. :)
Outside our donor’s house, waiting for him to deliver his sample. Starting to get anxious. This is real!!
Today is our first insemination attempt.
It’s a total shot in the dark, since we really have only the vaguest of ideas when I ovulate. We’re calling this our test run. Getting used to the process, etc. I’m nervous. Mostly because I’m apparently doing this on my own. Partner has to work late because he is theoretically getting promoted today. He better come home with good news or I’ll be even angrier! UGH. We were supposed to do this together. This is after we had a small fight a few days ago because I was upset (and rightfully so imo) that he hadn’t bothered to google the actual process of insemination and had literally no idea how this works. Seriously?? Grr. But it’s whatever, it’s over, it’s fine.
My next biggest stress is that we are likely moving across the state at the end of the summer. I’d be totally fine with that except my therapist is here, and is seeing me pro bono and has been for a year… I’m not going to be able to find a replacement. Even if I find someone we can afford, I’ve never had such a strong rapport with a therapist before and I’m really scared about giving that up. Also, the birth center I’ve had my mind set on since we made the decision to start trying is a 25 minute drive from our house now… it’s 4 hours from where we may need to move. There are no other non-hospital birth centers where we’re moving, and while the hospital birthing center looks okay, it’s just not at all what I wanted and that’s making me a little anxious and a little resentful, but I’m trying to get a handle on that. This move really would be what is best for us as a family, but I feel like I’d be losing a lot by moving. I don’t know. I’m worried. Anxiety is making me nauseous. ugh.